I am racist.
I am misogynist.
I am homophobic.
I am classist.
I am not condemned for these facts of my character.
From my perch in the top ten percent of income, even though I arrived by an accident of birth, there is no way my worldview has not been shaped and warped by Anglo, heterosexual, male privilege. I grew up presupposing that my British heritage was superior if for no other reason than British royal and imperial history, Shakespeare, and Handel were studied in every school as world history and world culture. Everything about the church I was raised in oozed Anglo-centrism as well – its form of worship, the language, music, and customs – and though it was small in number compared to other major religious denominations, a majority of congress had emerged from its pews.
On television and in the movies, until well into my adulthood, almost every important actor and celebrity looked like me. On the nightly news the people shown committing crimes as well as foreign enemies shooting at us from Southeast Asia (never mind we were invading them) did not look like me. Criminals were either Italian or African-American and enemies were Cuban, Asian, or pale stocky Russians with bad teeth. How could all of that not influence my perspective?
Intelligent, trustworthy people spoke with good grammar, graduated from college, and knew how to eat properly – with manners honed from upper class British customs. Even though I was older when it aired, the Cosby Family on television (as with previous television icons like Perry Mason, Matt Dillon, Doris Day, and Fred McMurray) exemplified my class and culture, and part of the humor of “All in the Family” was that they did not act or sound like us.
Although I went to a public school from Kindergarten through high school, it was a magnet school with severely limited diversity. When it was time to go to college all the choices encouraged were private, except the University of Michigan, which had family tradition but an out of state tuition that might as well have been private.
When I rebelled, which was what nearly everyone in the generation of my privileged class did, the rebellion was led by white males with few exceptions – African-Americans Bobby Seal and Huey Newton were a militant class all their own while Anglo Patty Hearst, the heir of fabulous wealth turned violent revolutionary criminal, seemed a crazy reversal and not something a rational (privileged) person would do. Even the so-called sexual revolution seemed like an insurrection led by and benefiting men more than women.
Jimi Hendrix was a falling star in the midst of a constellation of popular white rock and roll music. Jazz and blues hung out on the far edge of awareness and even though we knew they were cool, that is not where the money and celebrity were to be found. Top 40 and the record industry was almost all white except for a short spate of Motown and then Michael Jackson. That’s just the way the world looked, like the Beatles and Rolling Stones who were, after all, British.
Men ran things, that’s just how it was and had always been. Sure, there were women that complained about it but wasn’t that more sour grapes than serious critique? The Women’s Movement, derided as “Women’s Lib,” only intersected with men in the mass media via bra burnings and sexually explicit books written by feminists. The serious issues were rarely discussed openly and authentically between men and women.
I didn’t know at the time, for example, that my mom could not get credit or buy a car without her husband or that she would have lost

nearly any simple, everyday social privilege she had were she a single mom. I did not know those facts of life at the time, so what was the big deal? I realized there were fairness issues, like women couldn’t be priests and very few of them were doctors or lawyers, but most teachers were women so what was the problem?
Everyone knew Gay people were weird, but everyone also knew they were around. There was always a pair of old women who had lived together forever and who we all whispered about. There were bars and parks that only those people went to, and an older single teacher or two we were supposed to stay away from. They were an oddity that only boorish people made fun of and bullied, but like a bad odor, proper upper class etiquette did not acknowledge. Even the word “homosexual” was somehow impolite to utter out loud.
Growing up in that world included and insured a racist, misogynistic, homophobic, and classist worldview for those who were privileged, and I imagine for a good many others as well. That prism does not disappear with age and wisdom. We can get corrective lenses that adjust our vision but the lens we were formed with remains in tact the rest of our lives. We cannot rip away that lens and its perspectives. We can become aware that we have them, however, and so adjust our vision.
That is the point: if we do not acknowledge the lens we were formed with we will not gain clear and corrective vision.
Most of you in the Millennial generation have grown up in a far more diverse culture than the one Baby Boomers and the Silent generation did, at least in urban areas along the coasts and in major central cities. Your lens is embedded with the prejudices and bigotries of the past twenty years baked in, and you will also have to come to grips with those as you age. But for those of us older than forty-five or so, we need to aggressively pick through the bigotries and prejudices of the worldview we were raised with – whatever our ethnicity, race, gender, sexuality, or class. Even if your family had relatively enlightened values, which mine did, the film of cultural and social prejudice still formed.
There are shouts and echoes in the popular media today that “racism is rearing its ugly head again,” or that “racism is worse than ever.” Neither of those is true. What is true is that we are seeing ourselves in the mirror and hearing ourselves in the echo chamber of the news media. We see what has always been, and hear our prejudices and bigotries being titillated and provoked in order to gain votes.
The thing about our prejudices and bigotries is that we cannot address them until and unless we see and hear them. Right now, in this awful presidential season, is a powerful moment of cultural Gestalt Therapy. Lets’s use it to stand ugly face-to-ugly face with our own prejudices and bigotries.
Waking up – awareness – is the most potent antidote for what clouds our vision. There is nothing morally or spiritually damning about the prejudices and bigotries baked into the worldview we were raised with and given, but there is something quite damning about neither acknowledging nor compensating for their presence. One is a set of circumstances we were born into and raised with; the other is a matter of personal character.
Best one yet
Glad it hit the mark!
How many folk, are interested, as you say of standing “ugly face-to ugly face” with their prejudices and bigotries? Social location still acts as an insulator for the “lucky” to the harsh reality that some folk are just plain unlucky with regard to their “accidents of birth.” When you fight the “struggle” do you live among the oppressed or do you retire to a social location that reflects the your heritage and is devoid of the other? Just questions I want to pose when I read things like this. Sharing a story of your experience with “-isms” would be beneficial for your audience.
Thanks for the questions – very good ones. I don’t know the answer to the first one, about how many people are willing but in our current situation we’re all standing ugly. You are right on about social location. I can’t speak for gated communities, but every place I have lived it has been possible to build relationships across the usual socio-economic boundaries. Living in northern Vermont made racial diversity somewhat limited but ethnic diversity was very much a possibility. I think the challenge is, whatever our locations, to discover ways to build relationships beyond where our own house happens to be located. Some will choose to live in highly diversified neighborhoods and some not, but that isn’t the end of the opportunity. Again, gated communities may be the exception. Thanks for commenting.
Thank you Cam for your honesty and forth rite rant. You keep us on our toes/honest/and give us a mirror to see ourselves more clearly and move closer to where we should/could be in our lives. Keep kit up. Much love and appreciation, Nins
You’re welcome. Thank you!
I always admire your writings, Cam; but this time you’ve managed to uncover one of my own brain sink holes about “from where I came up.” My initial transformation to a reformed brand of thinking happened as I was becoming a part of a new family, the folks who would ultimately become my in-laws. If there were remarks made that contextually matched or resembled what I had heard at home about all the “them’s” we were to hate and avoid; well, it was done like a parody. OMG – thought I eventually: they’re goofing around with these whites-on-blacks issues, like maybe Charlie Chaplin would have done in one of his movies. Or Mel Brooks, later on. (You may recall Clevon Little, the new black sheriff in “Blazing Saddles,” being asked by the provocatively-assembled character played by Madeleine Kahn, if it was “True what they say about your people?”) These folks weren’t showing off their prejudices; they were using humor among each other to poke fun at how so many in the community-of-that-era was viewing minorities, oh and of course the RC’s; (the tip-off there was that the father was a devout RC, but it was all in good fun when one of them made an anti-RC remark – one that could easily resemble those ridiculous stereotypes offered by the prevailing right-wing bigots, often found among “the separated brethren.” Call it sarcasm if you would, but the spin was fun and acted to keep the recognition of such thinking within the intelligent discourse of the household.) Well, enough said by yours truly: you’ve done it beautifully, and I was recently reminded by someone about as critical as I – “You know a comment is not supposed to become your version of a blog.” Thank you very much, God; I hear ya.’
Nice blog! Thanks.
Cam, I appreciate your honest and “to the point” comments titled – A MATTER OF CHARACTER. Thanks for a very thought provoking blog.
~~ Peace and Blessings
I’m grateful for your support. Thank you.
This reminds me of a sermon you gave at St. Steve’s a number of years ago that has remained imprinted in my mind/brain. Since then, I have attempted, even successfully at times, to clean my lenses in order to see if I am truly seeing. Blessings, andy
Thanks Andy, for the comment and the encouragement that sermons have a longer shelf life than I can hope for!
Great words; again, thanks for sharing. Reminds me of explaining my own “environmental bigotry” that I grew up with on the west side of Indy. Poverty throws a big wrench into the White Man’s machine, but many of the same processes remain.
You’re welcome! Thanks.